About

Hello, I’m Ariel and thanks for visiting my blog. I wanted to create this blog as a form of self-discovery, as I feel like my personal voice is being lost and morphed into the void of conformity. Without giving myself time to think through or write my thoughts, I realized I was merely adopting the ideas of others around me. I think this lack of a strong sense of self and values system has caused much suffering and misdirection in my life, and so I want to make it my goal to establish these to live the life that I truly want for myself. 

One of my favorite hobbies is reading, but I always forget most of what I read soon after. I hope this blog helps to keep a record of the insights that I gain from the books I read. As my grandfather, a poet, once said, “If you read without thinking, you’re just a bookshelf.” He inspired me to explore philosophy and psychological literature with a simple booklist, and the first book I read from it was Dostoevsky’s “The Insulted and the Humiliated”. I’d never forget the impression my first Dostoevsky left on me – an introduction to ideas I’ve never encountered, a deepening interest into the depths of human nature, and a melancholic ache for the shared pains of our existence. I feel that books such as these tap into our deepest humanity, something that’s been almost inaccessible in this modern age that’s so focused on surfaces.

It’s terrifying to think about the uncertainty of any established truths, but even more terrifying is the thought of never attempting to define those truths for myself, and losing sight of what values align with my inner soul. I’ve felt it in the past where I lost connection with my self and soul, which also led to a loss of my conviction of certain values and personal morality. It alienated me from myself, and I felt a depth of hollowness that was only filled when I was led back to those things that resonated most deeply with my true self. I want to reconnect with my true self, to feel whole and live with purpose.

What does “floating in flux” mean?

I gave my blog this name to describe the constant uncertainty and searching for truth that I experience, trying to make sense of a seemingly random existence. Instead of uncertainty as something to be feared, I want to begin to embrace it as a process of learning, and continual change. This sense of impermanence inspires the courage to accept new ideas, embrace shifting perspectives, and build connections with others for mutual support through our shared struggles and uncertainties.

Thank you for visiting my blog; I’d love to see any of your thoughts on my posts in the comments. I hope that what I write may also resonate with you.